The Subconscious mind: 'Aap beeti'

'Aap beeti'

Well, this will unfold another side of me. I want to start this, with its relation to me. Throughout my schooling I spent life randomly living things out- no proper aims, no proper strategies, n blah blah blah. It was back then some1 insulted me in my 8^th grade. In those summer vacations, I analyzed what I was doing to my life. Co-incidentally, I happened to meet a man- a very motivated, energetic n confident person I had ever met. I was mesmerized with his aura. He had definite ideologies, principles, theories n al those big philosophical things we usually r scared of. Even I was…but slowly I was taken away by his simplicity, humbleness n generosity. He found the right abilities in me, but he knew I couldn’t manage them well. He got me into believing what he believed n shared a powerful ‘tool’ of his. U can’t say ‘shared’ but maybe introduced. Anyways, not caring much about the right word, I would say he told me about something known as ‘The Subconscious mind’. At inception, it was difficult to digest for me, maybe I wasn’t ready but hello …I had to tighten my seat belts. I didn’t know how far could that take me, but I was really fascinated. This man, whenever we met, told me short-stories, anecdotes and believe me I was getting actually hypnotized!! He told me several things n helped me organize my things, my goals, my life…

I had started achieving bigger things- top ranking at my school (1^st time), respect in other’s eyes (like never before) and most importantly I was carving a niche and carrying a similar (not same) aura as of his. I was loving all that I got. I spent almost 4 yrs (up to my 12^th grade), leading life as an achiever. Some day I lost contact with my mentor- maybe I wasn’t feeling the same for him. Some day I lost few of my achievements- maybe I was getting over-confident about me. Some day I lost my power, Oh My God, I lost my power- The power of subconscious mind (though ‘lost’ may not be the right word). I lost something which was responsible for building me a better human, had gone. How am I supposed to react? What am I supposed to do?

Then crept in the real menace- laziness! It took over me, in no time. There I ended up- a hap-hazarder again. Some day it turned out to be a bitter pain, the life I was leading was not the 1 I aimed for. Am I living someone else’s life? No, nope…it’s my life. Then? Am I dreaming some1 else’s dreams? No, not even that. But then I wanted an answer. Who else could answer if it isn’t me? Maybe I needed to meet a similar dynamic person once again (not that same person due to some ego problems). But hey….how often we encounter such people in life?. Hence past couple of months I have spent time in finding motivated people. Now, I suppose, I have people around me who have those qualities which could help me flourish. And also, I’m trying to become my own mentor. So, to cut the long story short, I have again started getting a hold on my subconscious mind and hitherto, I’ll be posting regularly about Subconscious mind n its fundas. I’ll wind up with a line Edmund Hillary said, when he failed to scale Mt. Everest the 1^st time-

“Look Mt. Everest, you beat me the 1^st time, I’ll beat you the next, cause u have grown all u wanted to grow but I’m still GROWING!!”

6 comments:

Unknown said...: neat, slick and posh... a very positive and confident post... loved reading it... cheers :); November 1, 2009 at 8:30 PM
Aks said...: life is full o ups n downs...so i can c the Up coming...; November 1, 2009 at 11:44 PM
Unknown said...: The subject is really good as inspirational one and makes change in views towards life...; November 12, 2009 at 4:05 PM
Unknown said...: the last words are ...(i have no word for)
inspiring; November 18, 2009 at 7:22 PM
Unknown said...: Dude my story is similar!!
Very inspiring and confidence booster!

Great Post!!

Care,
Neer; December 14, 2009 at 11:57 PM
Unknown said...: gr8 one.........; January 18, 2010 at 12:16 AM